should i continue this or get on with me life?
too much hope=too much dissapointment...
not sure whether you're still here a not..
after yesterday, dissappointment was high...
am i demanding too much? haha.. never demand on something unlkess i really want them.. hehe
whether you understnad this a not, non of us would know.. don't ask either...
thanks for everything...
just remember to great ppl with a smile everyday...=)
this post is dedicate to my mom side grandma and my schoolmate andrew...
To grandma: thanks for being our grandma and we will always love you and you'll never be forgotten...hope you have a better life in heaven... cause you've suffered a lot here. and waited for a very long time. send our regrards to our grandpa in heaven.
To Andrew Yap: thought i don't know you very well as we were in the same class only in form 2. but i'll remember you as the short andrew and i hope we will meet again in next life.. i'm really shock to what had happen... now you've wake up in heaven, you will have a better life there... hope i'll be given a chance to know you better..
life is so short and fragile... once it's broken, there's no turning back... i'm very touched on what andrew's friends did for him just to wake him up.. though i don't know him very well.. but i do fell the pain.. it's a very shocking news...
rest in peace guys....
happy chinese new year eveyrone! and happy valentines!
just finish bai tee kong..=) fell twice and burnt my hair a little while praying.. crap! so much for long hair.. have to go cut ade...
there's a few good things happen this new year... hehe.. i get to see my cousin sis who's the same age as me!!! i haven't seen her for ages!!!! hehe.. miss her much..
as usual.. my chinese new year goes on as tradition but less 'few' cousin who's aboard... hehe.. quite bored also.. spend most of the time watching tv.. hehe.. and bully my u youngest uncle...=) but he ended up bullying me the most.. haha.. as an entertaintment.. miss him actually.. get to see him once a year only..
he bought a few clothes for us from cambodia.. quite nice and his 2 brothers which is my dad and uncle got the same shirt.. i like the WWF panda t-shirt! so cute.. but i don't have to pictures with me now.. replace it next time.. hehe...
came back on 2nd day of cny, went dong chan ont he 3rd day and stay till 4th... then went segamat to visit my segamat friends and meets new ones.. hehe..
they really treat me well! really fed me till round round.. the last night there have 2 time dinner and the mornign before i left have twice breakfast! hehe..special thanks to kai wei and his family!.. sorry for disturbing you guys this few days.. hehe..thank you very much.. i have a pleasent stay...
haha... spend my valentines with stef and kor... oh ya.. xian!! sorry i didn't send you off that day!.. cause i was outstation... please take good care of yourself k? muacx! auntie love ys lots!!! anything can come and find auntie k? if your ma zhi busy flirting around.. hehe..
oh ya.. stef made chocolate!!!!! yummy!!! not too sweet.. neither bitter.. just the way i liked it!! thanks stef!!! muacx!
now chris and stef's leaving soon... gene too.. going to miss everyone a lot.. and my segamat friends and yueh ming! my lovely sis whom we misses each other a lot.. (ok, that sounds so wrong)...=)
this month have been a very busy month.. eveyrthing comes 1 after another... after bangkok then camp then exams.. much to accomplished, so little time..
though out the whole year, i've learn a lot.. done lots of mistakes and learnt from it.. don't want to see me falling for the same ones i made this year..
To everyone.. i'm very sorry becasue of my mistakes, it brings makes you doing more work.. but thank you for giving me a chance to learn.. thank you for accompanying me through out the year..
i've learnt how bout time managements and people managements.. this will bring good help in the futures...
most important is to thank all my friends and family for giving me supports and when i needed one..without you guys, i don't know what will happen to me...
i may look strong but i'm actually quite timid and worried a lot.. but i'm concering slowly..it may take time but i really hope i can deal with it.. hehe..
jia you ba!don't give up! there's more for me to learn and understand!!=)
can't we just remain as friends?
just wanna stay focus on my stuff.. not to divert things now..
this year have almost come to an end.. through out the year i've done lots of mistakes that i would like to correct them and change them..
too many to think about and i would like to accomplish as much as i could...
what you're doing, don't have to report to me.. calls can be made sometimes to catch up with each other, but not everyday..
sorry for treating you like that.. i really felt bad but i have no choice.. thanks you for everything...hope you understand...=)
just came back from camp this evening.. it was fun but tiring as usual...though many things didn't went on smoothly as we thought, we still stand on out feets and continue our jobs and change to suit the enviroment.
oh ya before i forget!!
CONGRATULATIONS TO:
SHUEHZ- - - OUR BELOVED CHAIRPERSON!
DXY
and out very own ai wo camp leader Zhi hui!!
Zhong Tuan
for putting everything together.. and not to forget!!!
our belevoed xue yuan and tuan yuan men for thier co-operation and willingness to bring everything together..
thank you everyone!:)
lots of things happen this time in grand gathering camp!.. not only see our participant grew stronger and our own people too gain up the strenght! especially hui qi!.. you go girl!!!!
made lots of wonderfully friends there.. dissapointments? of course there is.. stuff that i didn't know and expects... quite dissapointed at 1 point at myself for not doing it properly..
still trying to get used with the management. scared at first.. but i have to pull myself out from the darkness to pick it up... sometimes some of them felt like scared of me cause i ask them too much i think...
and at 1 point at the time i was very afraid of them who call me over and say i wanna talk to you.. and most of them ar student representative. but i knwo this is not the time to be coward... trying my best to stand still on the ground to do the best i can...
i would also like to appologize to everyone for not letting you guys squeeze together.. hehe.. sorry!!! everytime, before meeting, make myself prepared to be shoot by ppl ade.. cause i know i didn't do well..
things that happen, let it happen.. what ppl say, we have to think twice and treat it as an advice if it's good to you...
Now it has come to an end of the chapter of this year, and it's time for me to put on a full stop to this camp, this year.. hopefully next year will be better and there's more to come next year!!
~take care all! and drink more water!!!~
to go advance or degree?
that's a very good question!still thinking hard about it..
advance it's really hard to pass.. senoir say if your result is quite alright, there are quite high possibility of us to FAIL! some of them who are really good in diploma level study like mad only got a C...
crap!! and my 1 internal paper can be doubled up into 2 papers!which means a total disaster!
ask me to decide wheter should i go UTAR for degree or Sunway or continue advance? i can't give you and actual answer rite now...
felt very lost! everything is like being a mess.. my life, my road just came blur...
when will it end? is up to me to find out.. whichever path i choose.. shound like suicidel to me..
will try my best to do and achieve what i want.. time is running out but some ppl just don't understand!
hope everything will improve tomorrow..
as tomorrow is a new day~~~
ok.. i'm going to start to post blog again..
threr's too many things going on my mind that i wish i could resolve...
friendship, studies,family....
things happens and i couldn't control.. lots of politics...
i choose to confront but i chicken out again..
stef! sheen!! faster come back!! so that we can have our gatherings like before!!!
evie like this colour.. so i'll type this specially for her ... hehe...we better hand out more often so you won't say i look so stress when i see you.. haha..
really miss the old days.. what happen to it? it has past like the wind and it's as far as the stars!
good luck!
MY Holiday have officially ended!!!!
but before my holiday ended.. i manage to take a trip down to segamat to withness thier Xiang He Ye...
i actually intented to go there as a holiday.. just sit there and just enjoy what's going on.. then may be help out a bit when they needed... but... i drag into helping out major role..
haha..
at first suppose to help my head of department in chinese new year event to settle the hair do and make up session for the float procession..
later meet xiu li and i really pity her cause 2 of herassistant can't help out during this event.. 1 sick, the other leg was on bandage.. the girl who's leg on bandage happens to be my friend's sis.. so have to help her on the ceromany part.. haha...
but i think i didn't do well.. and it didnt' went up to my expectations.. really dissapointed... and i would like to appologize to everyone for the dissapointment.. hehe..
anyway.. i went there with no regrets, as i learn lots of stuff and really enjoy the stay and the time.. i can really see thier effort ont his event!... it's a real success!
Congratulations to Segamat youth!!!
thought the 2 nights there didn't get to sleep much.. both nights also slept at 5 something in the morning... haha.. kai wei and han ke suppose to bring me go and try their food and specialtise there.. unfortunately.. we didn't have time.. too busy with this event...so you guys have to owe me 1.. haha!
now.. sem has started so have to study now! hehe.. but i really wanna thank Segamat youth for giving me a chance to learn and try different things..
thanks!
went to Bangsa Village to watch the match yesterday! hehe.. quite a good experience except for the smokers part.. haha!
want the Man U to win!!! but Chelsea got it!!! Argh!!!
the whole Bangsa car park was full with red shirt ppl!!! so that means Man U fans more than Chelsea!!! muahahah!!!
haihz.. anyway.. went to explore inside Bangsa Village before the match started! jian's bro reserve some seats for us!cause he's working as a supervisor on Tiger FC. haha..
but cause we came out late.. *who's fault ar?* heeh!!! but don't feel bet ler.. is ok! i forgave ya! muackz!
took a few pics of butterfly! cause they are so pretty!!!
straight down.. all th colourful thigs are butt
erflies!
upclosed butterflies!
ka wai che che and me
well// actually kinda expected Man U will lose cause of thier performance last night.. haihz..
hehe..
